Sunday, December 07, 2014

he is with me.


it's here. the season of advent, awaiting the celebrated day our savior was born. our crooked tree stands in the living room, carefully packed with pounds of christmas cheer. everything seems more peaceful when seen by its glow of colorful lights. tree trimmings and various other holly jolly bits are working hard to set a festive tone. but it's just not enough for our tired bodies and souls. we've been passing sickness 'round and around here since before thanksgiving. i'm over it. i'm fighting to feel the lord near in this strange loneliness that bunks with sickness. he is enough for me. for us. will i believe that?

i'm mostly behind on all things christmas, and everything else really. one thing i committed to do and am keeping up with so far: some advent reading. each year i try to read something personally, apart from whatever we do as a family. we usually read through the jesus story book bible. this year i chose to follow the she reads truth advent reading plan. it's so good! making this time each day, no matter what i feel like, has helped me tremendously. some days i've had to stop and restart a few times, but i make it happen.
meeting with the lord always gives rest. always breathes peace. always births hope. it's fascinating to me how i can crave and avoid at the same time. the life-giving power of the scripture, the fellowship with my savior, it sometimes feels like work. even during this special time of year. am i willing to do the work?

"what i want most for christmas this year is to join you (and many others) in seeing christ in all his fullness and that we together be able to love what we see  with a love far beyond our own half-hearted human capacities." john piper
  
well, i asked the lord specifically to help my focus this advent season. he's made sure i'm listening! i can see only strep throat and the flu, or the opportunity in the halt of the to-do lists and activities. he's helping me wait for him. in being forced to rest, i'm compelled to consider the manger and the tiny king swaddled there. 

jesus didn't come to fix me. he came to make me new. he came to rescue me from sin and sadness, from my goodness that's not good enough. he came to give me real rest, true freedom and hope. i want to see this jesus, i want to see emmanuel god with us.
he is with me in the miles that separate me from family. he is with me in the fever monitoring and endless laundry. he is with me when i feel forgotten. he is with me when i forget he is with me.

"come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and i will give you rest. take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for i am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." matthew 11:28-29

i've shared this video before and i'm sharing it again. listen and rest. emmanuel!

5 comments:

  1. Hi Hannah! I'm reading that advent series as well...SRT - awesome.
    I am in a season of feeling very forgotten, but yes, amen, He's still with us. We're not alone!

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    1. sweet kerry. i am sorry you're feeling forgotten. so thankful we are never alone.
      merry christmas! xo

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  2. I love this post. And I especially love that little nativity set thing-y, where is it from??

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    1. isn't it the sweetest?
      lindsay at penandpaint.etsy.com makes them!

      xo

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  3. reading this a bit late, but yes to immanuel!! i so loved that paragraph above the matthew 11 verse.

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