Thursday, November 20, 2014

tonight.


elijah and patrick fell asleep during bedtime reading, so here i am for a minute.

i'm really struggling that we're nearly at the end of november. i feel like i keep saying it, but good grief. i can't keep up with time these days!

we really had a cold snap here this past week. i've loved it. breathing in the chilly, crisp air puts life into my brain and bones, the leaves here are fading, but still showing off their color a bit. speaking of leaves, it's wonderful to have trees everywhere. such a change from the tree-less plains we grew so fond of. 

my baby sister is having her third baby soon. tomorrow! this is the first time i won't be there. she has a sweet, wonderful husband by her side, that is comforting to know. i am missing her so much though. looking forward to seeing photos and hearing the story of the little man's birth. and his name of course, they haven't decided on one yet :)

elijah has had an incredibly successful week at school. he's so excited that tomorrow is friday. i'm so excited that he has all week off next week. he doesn't realize it yet, and i cry just thinking of how happy he'll be for the break!

i did some christmas ornament shopping today. gift exchanges are irresistible to me, fyi. i had a great time, and i was almost giddy at the alone time i had to peruse shops and flocked trees for just the right ornament. it's been years since i strolled through a giant department store with little agenda. wow. there's just so much stuff. and this time of year? out of control stuff. but i love it, ha! having worked in retail for many years of my life, i especially notice all the displays and imagine how long they took to design and assemble. i miss that. and i miss chatting with all the shoppers. there's something about the "festive energy" this time of the year. you know what i mean? we're preparing for thanksgiving, which is truly a preparation for christmas. we're wide-eyed with all the shiny noise of it all. possibly overwhelmed by the lists, or perhaps the lack. we all desire "great" holiday experiences, i think. i'm guilty of having a wonky perspective of what actually makes a holiday great. it's not the playlists, movie marathons, the wrappings, the decor, the family, the feasts. it's the giver. always the giver.
on days like today, with carols filling my ears and surrounded by everything jolly, i push myself to remember the truth. the giver. let me focus on him.

anyway. i'm gonna go wake my husband, because i'm a nice wife who wants to hang out a little. it felt good to pour out my thoughts these last few minutes. what's on your mind tonight?

2 comments:

  1. Preparing for Thanksgiving is preparing for Christmas - I love that! I love Thanksgiving and I think it's for that very reason, although I've never put it into those words.

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