Friday, January 24, 2014

thoughts from a winter morning.


"there are three stages in every work of god: impossible, difficult, done." j. hudson taylor

the middle of winter is a great time for thinking. holidays have passed, the winds pick up and the temps drop further still. extra time in the house, likely taking care of various sickness being passed around. these are ingredients for stillness, and in stillness the mind clouds part and the faint light of inspiration comes. at least it's possible for things to work this way.

my mind clouds have yet to part. i'm seeing more confusion than inspiration. 
so many obligations, so many hopes, so many unknowns, so many hurts to heal, so many errands. please, lord, with the errands! everything seems to close in and shout, finish me! figure me out now! take care of all the people!
i'm easily overwhelmed. it's getting worse with age. i would love to claim it's due to my great wisdom, seeing all the things, therefore being more burdened and intimidated. but it's not true. i think i get overwhelmed, and even worry sometimes, because i'm too lazy or proud to give it to jesus. it somehow seems easier, in my clouded mind, that i need to work everything out, then pray specifically, according to what i see.

then this morning, dark and early, i see that faint light of inspiration. the lord whispered a reminder. i need to keep on celebrating his goodness. i need to keep on practicing gratitude. not just when i feel like it, but especially when i don't. this is where inspiration of all sorts begins. 
a thankful mind is a thoughtful mind. a mind thoughtful always of the goodness of god is clear. hopeful. strong. at rest. because he doesn't change. 

his goodness and faithfulness then, will be so now. he doesn't forget how to be faithful, like i so often do. he's working all things at all times, for his glory and my ultimate good. i want to get out of the way. i want to break free from the gloom of failed self-sustaining strength and trust him. in all things. 
i'm sure i'll forget his goodness many more times, and i'm grateful to know he will remind me every one of those times. he carries out the tiny and impossible things.

9 comments:

  1. Will you plead with The Lord for me? That I will be able to humble myself, repent, believe, and be saved? It feels impossible--like I'm just playing a game now, not even having any true understanding or fear of The Lord. I'm so rich in gifts/knowledge he's given me; please pray my wealth won't keep me out of the kingdom but will start to woo me to it! That I will see that I still need Him and will desire Him more than self/my own glory. If you pray with others you trust, please share. Thanks.

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    1. absolutely praying with you, right now!
      we do need him, every moment.
      god tells us in his word in romans 10, "everyone who calls on the lord will be saved".
      you're already there. you recognize your hopeless apart from HIM, call on him. confess your unbelief, ask the lord to change your heart. ask him to give you a heart for him, above all else.

      scripture also speaks of how your old self dies and a new life emerges! "if anyone is in christ, he is a new creation. the old has passed away; behold, the new has come. all this is from god, who through christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation" 2 corinthians 5:17-18 and in ephesians 4:20-24 "but that is not the way you learned christ, assuming that you have heard about him and were taught in him, as the truth is in jesus, to put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of god in true righteousness and holiness."

      he makes you new. in his crazy, merciful love, he can change your heart!
      i think you'd love doing this simple three day devotional plan https://www.bible.com/reading-plans/382-fascinating-love-of-god-devotional-john-piper!

      (if you'd like to read more...i think reading through the gospel of john in the bible, or even beginning in psalms(relatable to every area of life!) is a great place to start reading scripture. time in the word and in prayer draws us to jesus and gives light to our every day.)
      would love to hear from you, email me any time wifeysinger@gmail.com

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  2. And that he'll help me open my hands to receive who He is and what he's done!

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  3. Oh how I needed these words this morning!! Just sent a prayer up for you and starting my day better with that quote, impossible, difficult, done.

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  4. So many mind clouds. Amen, friend. Amen. And I'm a little jealous of your snow.

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  5. I love Love LOVE your blog. I'm from the same city as you, so it is just neat to see all the places =)

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  6. "my mind clouds have yet to part." " i need to keep on celebrating his goodness." I can so relate to both. I love your encouraging words, Hannah. :)

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