i've been up since 4am. i spent most of the early morning trying to sleep, barking at my child to stop jumping!! be still! pleeeeeeease!!! it wasn't peaceful or restful or enjoyable or anything i loved. and that was my poor choice. because i know it's possible to enjoy these crazy early rises. i manage it sometimes! i manage to remember that every breath is a gift. even if it's in the middle of the night with a bouncing, needy little boy of mine.
i opened up my bible app on my phone, squinting my puffy, exhausted eyes to read in the dark. and i regret not doing so first thing, at 4am.
advent isn't about anticipating what i think christmas should look and feel like. this season is about celebrating and watching for the greatest gift, jesus. he came into this weary, wretched world as a tiny babe. grew into a child, then a man. lived as a human being, just like me. i was reminded as i read yesterday that he is with me. emmanuel, god is with us! he sees my hard things, he knows my needs better than myself. i need to trust him. i need to rest in him.
will you come to jesus with me today? making our requests known unto god, giving our heavy hearts over to his gentle, wise care. rest in him. know his peace and enjoy him in this season.
"come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and i will give you rest. take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for i am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." matthew 11:28-29