Wednesday, June 26, 2013

scattering the night

we're in full force summer mode here, folks. 
and i wish i could tell you that it's been the the best ever. it's been difficult so far, every single day. and in my mind, that's a far cry from "the best ever". i'm grateful that the lord holds us close and lightens the load of it all. even if just to whisper "i'm here, don't fret. press on, mama" when my head hits the pillow at night. 
we're having some fun, and a lot of tantrums. from elijah and me. we're adjusting to new, lessened therapy schedules, and we're both weary of the changes. 

when i saw this sweet friend share honestly about her struggle, i just cried. because i read my own heart in her words. she reminded me that i'm not the only one. so grateful for that. i always try to keep it real in my sharing here, and annalea's post encouraged me in that. it's ok if words will be few for awhile, because i just don't have many. or i have too many and no energy :)

for the fun, productive days. and days when it feels lonely and hard.
when the reality that this isn't a "season that will pass" stares me in the face.
i must remember:
jesus can change me, equip me, encourage me in the midst of the cemented circumstance. he is real, and steadfast and he can lift the darkness. shining his light on every inch of the day, giving me reason to sing anyway.
i'm asking the lord to help me focus on him and his glory and not my trouble. asking him to help me be grateful, and keep on going. already he's answered. already he's comforted me and lifted me up. and i'm trusting him to carry us through this summer and even provide beautiful, super fun times for our family!

Hallelujah! Thine the glory.
Hallelujah! Amen.
Hallelujah! Thine the glory.
Revive us again.
We praise Thee, O God!
For Thy Spirit of light,
Who hath shown us our Savior,
And scattered our night.
All glory and praise
To the God of all grace,
Who hast brought us, and sought us,
And guided our ways.
Revive us again;
Fill each heart with Thy love;
May each soul be rekindled
With fire from above.
{william p. mackay}


  1. Deep breaths. Lots of time outs (for you). And plenty of ice cream. On Sundays of course. These things will help. I promise.

    1. amen. all perfectly wise advice :)
      love you! xo

  2. I don't know what your struggle is like because I haven't been there. But I do know your Jesus. And isn't it miraculous that we can bring all of this before Him and trust Him and His will for our lives? Praying for you right now.

    1. YES. praise him.
      grateful for you, dear darling laura! xo

  3. Oh, friend. You know I hear you. My words feel few these days, too.
    I'm thinking God's just asking me to chill, you know?
    Because we have enough pressure in our days. :)