Wednesday, February 27, 2013

charlie, the sweetest name

for a long while, elijah didn't call me "mama", he wouldn't usually address me at all. 
every now and then, he would look up, and shout "sah-leeeeee" and run up to me, throwing his arms around my legs and give the best hug. it took us some time, but we realized what he was actually saying. charlie. from one of his favorite shows, charlie and lola

soon, almost any time elijah wanted my attention, he would shout out his happy "sah-leeeeee!!!!" and run over with a hug. having lived many months without hearing mama or even getting voluntary hugs made this an incredibly welcome nickname. 
this photo is from his first day of school last fall, do you remember? 


he screamed "sah-leeeeee!!!!" when he saw me, and dragged his precious teacher to meet me.
i think it was the best day ever.

more and more elijah is affectionate to us, even more to others! papa has always been his jam, noticeably getting excited when patrick's around. i've always known elijah loves me, too. it's just been a glorious blessing to see it in a more tangible way now. he even says mama on occasion. but mostly, when he greets me after a long day of school and therapy? he's happy and hugging charlie.

he says "charlie" much clearer now. and he takes our hands most nights before bed, leading us to stand in front of the kitchen sink. then he scurries over to the wall near the front door, giving himself distance to run. he throws his little head back, shuts his eyes and yells "charlieeeeeeee!!!!" and elijah runs to us, and we to him. we clash and squeeze each other in one beautiful, rambunctious hug.

elijah is acting out something he's seen on a cartoon dvd. but he knows it means, "i love you". this is his way of communicating this to me right now, no doubt.

i've mentioned to friends, how it hurts to miss out on the "mama" name. but how i know and love that "charlie" is in its place. i'm grateful for friends and family who hear me, they listen. they love. they understand that the language "spoken" in our home sounds and looks different. sometimes there are no words at all. sometimes there's charlie.


some folks have "mama" stamped onto jewelry or stitched onto a pillow in the native tongue of their internationally adopted children. i've always thought that was so beautiful. my darling friend made me this necklace, because she knows the language of my son. she knows that i am charlie, elijah's mama

i'm tremendously grateful for these seemingly small ways the lord is caring for my heart in this special journey of motherhood. 
tell me what you're grateful for today!

39 comments:

  1. How sweet of her to get that for you! And, by the way, Charlie was one of the names I had picked out for my daughter ;) But my husband chose her name instead. I LOVE Charlie!!!

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  2. This is awesome. I really love this story.

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  3. you are just the best charlie for elijah! love you friend.

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  4. This is just SO SWEET! You're blessed to get a mama name unlike any other, so special!! <3

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  5. goodness me. i love this up one side and down the other.

    charlie is the best thing ever. and why not?

    who wants to be stuck in a mama box when you can be charlie? not i says this bird.

    the best thing about that eg is that the world he is making here isn't in a box.

    he's outside of it. his view is so much better than ours.

    he probably sees jesus clearer than any of the rest of us. sitting in our silly boxes.

    praise jesus we get to see a glimpse of eg's life.

    that eg is something special friend.

    you are one lucky charlie.

    xxoo

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  6. oh Hannah... I mean Charlie... I am crying some serious tears over here. him taking you over to the sink so he can run and hug and yell charlieeee! oh my heart. I'm so thankful for YOU and the way you share this beauty with us so faithfully.

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  7. Oh my gosh, I just love this!! What a special name for a special mama!

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  8. tears.
    lots of tears over here.
    happy, happy tears.
    this is so beautiful hannah.
    xo

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  9. Oh my goodness, total tears here! What a precious and beautiful necklace and sentiment. And Elijah has great taste in cartoons...I love Charlie and Lola. And so I raise a glass of pink milk to you, Charlie! Cheers! :)

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  10. What a beautiful gift for a beautiful lady from a beautiful friend!

    Like everyone else, puddles of tears on my desk over here.

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  11. Oh, I love this so much!!! As a mom of a child with developmental and speech delays, I feel so connected to this story. We definitely speak out own language in this family...and I'm growing quite fond of that fact! Thanks for sharing this, friend!

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  12. my dad's name was charlie, so i love this even more, of course.

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  13. Oh sweet girl. This might be my favorite EG story ever.

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  14. Oh my goodness - a beautiful story! Thanks so much for sharing this.

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  15. oh how i love this. picturing your group family hug is the best ever. i always knew charlie & lola were the jam, this just proves it. xoxo

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  16. beautiful. thanks for sharing. i think you are one lucky lady to have "charlie" as your name rather than momma. you have a unique, special, just between you and him, name, and i think that might be better.

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  17. Beautiful, beautiful - how poignant. You should write a short story about that, and have it published. Seriously, that is just such an awesome story. Write it now.

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  18. this is so beautiful. tearing up reading and seeing that necklace with such an awesome meaning. charlie, you are a rockin' mama.

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  19. This is a sweet story, Hannah. Thank you for sharing!

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  20. So very special, Hannah! I'm grateful for YOU!!

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  21. Moved to heartfelt tears by the sweetness of the love between you. You radiate bright shiny mommy love and we are all feeling it.

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  22. oh man, i love this. i think it's one of my new favorite blog posts ever. what a beautiful charlie you make.

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  23. good gracious, hannah.
    i'm a blubbering mess.
    i couldn't love this more.
    not possible.

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  24. Well, this is your best post ever, Charlie.

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  25. how perfect.

    your journey and family and well, everything, has always looked different and come about in a very different way than most. your experience as a mother mimics no others, one in a million I tell you, so it's fitting that your name be one in a million as well:) the fact that Elijah is running to you yelling "Charlie" and hugging you speaks volumes more than a traditional "i love you". he is showing you that he is choosing you. every. day.

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  26. Wow, just wow. What an incredible story. Thank you so much for sharing it with us. No matter what they call us, they love us and we are their world. :)

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  27. I love this.

    Thanks for sharing it with us.

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  28. oh sweet charlie, thank you for sharing that with us!

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  29. this is so beautifully sweet. i love it. i had chills as i was reading it. truly. thank you for sharing. thank you. thank you for sharing...this has totally re-framed and encouraged my heart to be thankful for the little things with my children...the way you are thankful for "charlie" and the little ways your son is loving on you. how beautiful! thank you for encouraging my heart. {we love that charlie & lola...such sweet and joyful kids}! xo

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  30. this took my breath away. love.

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  31. crying sweet happy tears for this! oh how he loves his charlie. and i do too!

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  32. well that just made me cry.
    so so precious hannah.

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  33. I cried. *sigh*
    I love you, Hannah!

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  34. Oh goodness, tears!

    In the eight long years of infertility, I took solace that I was "She-She" to my sweet nieces.

    Until one day a visitor from Hawaii clarified that "She-She" means "to urinate". And a Japanese friend confirmed the same in her language.

    Somehow it only made the nickname stick more - so I proudly wear it. Hi, my name is She-She... and I know what it means :)


    Much love to you Charlie!

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  35. i mean really. REALLY. so so amazing and special. Im so glad you shared this. you ARE the BEST Charlie. love you hannah!!!

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  36. oh my word. this is so precious, hannah. thank you for sharing!

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