yesterday afternoon i went grocery shopping.
this is obvious, because i came home with these totally 80's napkins. target slays me like that sometimes.
when i saw them, my mind was flooded with so much goodness. my 1980s.
suddenly i could hear jem and the holograms (which i always watched secretly, if at all) and see my grade school self. in all my lanky, awkward glory. i thought of my little friends, remembering each of their names, and wondered where they are now. i saw my old bedroom-papered in hideous floral from previous owners-our hardwood floors, and tiny bathroom with a heater on the wall. the smell of homemade bread, and a pearly blue boombox blaring steve green from the kitchen.
i had this amazing sweater ensemble. it looked just like those black napkins!
a hand-me-down. from a cool girl. black skirt and top.
both sweater. i mean, i'm pretty sure i wouldn't wear a sweater skirt now, but never say never.
thin rainbow stripes across the top of the shirt, that zipped up, turtleneck style. told you it was amazing.
and the skirt had stripes on the bottom.
i wore black tights with it, i was super hot.
and by hot, i don't mean hey, baby, i mean hell.
sweater ensembles, even in winter, don't work well in missississippi.
as a young person, i was often made fun of for my clothes. we didn't have much, so i'd often wear outfits over and over. and even this incredible, fancy branded sweater set, i was ridiculed. because kids are dumb.
one night our family packed up in our super cool van, which is a whole 'nother story, to vicksburg for the miss mississippi pageant. a beautiful, sweet girl from our church was in it. this called for my best. out came the zip up turtleneck sweater. i remember being in the crowded hallway of that auditorium, maybe waiting for the restroom? and i saw her. a girl, close to my age, wearing the exact same outfit that i was wearing! perhaps another girl would've hated such a sight, we like being unique, you know. but this girl. it felt awesome to see someone in what i was wearing. it never happened. i felt a little less awkward. still hot, but less awkward for sure. it was a good feeling. and i miss that outfit so much.
it would have been wrong for me not to buy these napkins.