Wednesday, January 23, 2013

this is how my brain works


yesterday afternoon i went grocery shopping. 
this is obvious, because i came home with these totally 80's napkins. target slays me like that sometimes.

when i saw them, my mind was flooded with so much goodness. my 1980s.
suddenly i could hear jem and the holograms (which i always watched secretly, if at all) and see my grade school self. in all my lanky, awkward glory. i thought of my little friends, remembering each of their names, and wondered where they are now. i saw my old bedroom-papered in hideous floral from previous owners-our hardwood floors, and tiny bathroom with a heater on the wall. the smell of homemade bread, and a pearly blue boombox blaring steve green from the kitchen. 

i had this amazing sweater ensemble. it looked just like those black napkins!
a hand-me-down. from a cool girl. black skirt and top. 
both sweater. i mean, i'm pretty sure i wouldn't wear a sweater skirt now, but never say never. 
thin rainbow stripes across the top of the shirt, that zipped up, turtleneck style. told you it was amazing. 
and the skirt had stripes on the bottom. 

i wore black tights with it, i was super hot. 
and by hot, i don't mean hey, baby, i mean hell. 
sweater ensembles, even in winter, don't work well in missississippi.
as a young person, i was often made fun of for my clothes. we didn't have much, so i'd often wear outfits over and over. and even this incredible, fancy branded sweater set, i was ridiculed. because kids are dumb.

one night our family packed up in our super cool van, which is a whole 'nother story, to vicksburg for the miss mississippi pageant. a beautiful, sweet girl from our church was in it. this called for my best. out came the zip up turtleneck sweater. i remember being in the crowded hallway of that auditorium, maybe waiting for the restroom? and i saw her. a girl, close to my age, wearing the exact same outfit that i was wearing! perhaps another girl would've hated such a sight, we like being unique, you know. but this girl. it felt awesome to see someone in what i was wearing. it never happened. i felt a little less awkward. still hot, but less awkward for sure. it was a good feeling. and i miss that outfit so much.

it would have been wrong for me not to buy these napkins.

32 comments:

  1. i'm so glad you did.
    and so glad you told this story.
    i can relate. :)

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  2. I love it. Kids are dumb. Because I know you were just lovely. A sweater skirt? I'd have borrowed that for sure. I love the napkins, too. A must-buy!

    ps, my boom box was pink and blaring Phil Keaggy. But only because all of our Keith Green albums were...albums. That's right. Vinyl, baby. Viva la '80's!

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    1. LOVE phil keaggy!
      and next time i own a sweater skirt, i'll happily lend it:)

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  3. Boombox blaring Steve Green! Hahahaha! I tried explaining Steve Green to someone who'd never heard of him and it was surprisingly hard.

    I grew up with Larry Norman on the record player. My dad was edgy like that :)

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  4. a sweater outfit sounds awesome in every way! i'd totally wear it right now. i'm going to start looking for one to wear on days like these! :)
    (amy grant and sandi patty for us on our black boom box with neon knobs. come to think of it, our boom box would have looked really good with your sweater outfit.)

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    1. that's all i was missing, a matching boombox.
      (and sandi patti was my main christmas jam, the gift goes on-and on and on!)

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  5. i think our 80s selves would have been bffs. 4eva.

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  6. that sounds like an amazing sweater!
    i love that these napkins brought back these memories. the mind is amazing in the way it works.

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    1. it was! and yes, our brains are hilar sometimes.

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  7. Oh, too funny - and yes, kids can be so dumb. Adults too.

    You rock!!

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    1. i just try to not be a dummy these days, you kow?

      xo

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  8. I have to know... is this the outfit :) http://songskatesang.typepad.com/.a/6a00e554e8b4c28833017c35f92049970b-pi

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  9. Oh, the good old days...
    The youngsters these days will never know the thrill of teased hair, pink eye shadow, and neon tights.
    *sigh* I miss those days.
    Thanks for the reminder.

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  10. best line ever: "and by hot, i don't mean hey, baby, i mean hell."

    i have been that a time or two or two hundred in my life.

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    1. seriously. hot girls.
      it comes with the southern territory, i guess :)

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  11. well you know how i feel about Jem. soul sisters. i'm so glad you bought the napkins!
    also, this reminded me of my 1st day in 7th grade when i wore a teal tshirt dress with a big slouchy white belt, panty hose {yes, panty hose} and white pumps. it was the bomb, obviously. i'm just sure everyone else thought so too. at least i think you would have.

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    1. the real question is, did you do your bangs? because that was the most important part of 7th grade.
      i love you both.

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  12. i love this story so so much. i had this pair of abercrombie track pants (when that was THE brand to own) that i seriously wore with a chunky maroon wool turtleneck. like, every day. like they matched. and i wasnt cute in it, and it wasnt flattering, but they were ABERCROMBIE TRACK PANTS, girl! the Trapper Keeper of pants! it just felt right, you know?

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  13. Oh... I remember the days of Jem.
    Jem.. oooo... Jem is excitement! fashion and fame.. truly truly outrageous!
    here is the link to make you smile:
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=20BZID081Vk
    although now i have it stuck in my head!
    hugs hannah.

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  14. Ha love it! Sweater skirts were so rad ;) I had a pink one.

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  15. i really REALLY like how your brain works.
    this just made my heart so happy.
    :)

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  16. Steve Green?! People Need the Lord! He was a staple in my house. So...funny story...I was sitting around the table with some jr. highers from my church talking about music. They were all sharing about their love for Toby Mac, and I was excited to play the cool-youth-worker card of "I met him once...you know, when he was still part of DC Talk." To which they all replied, "What's DC Talk?" What the what?! I think it might have been the first time in my life when I ever felt really old. And, my outfit was a polka-dot ensemble...purple and pink polka-dots (big dots on top and small on the bottom)...complete with shoulder pads and stirrups. :) I like you and your stories.

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  17. Love you girl...and this particular story of yours may be my fave.

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  18. Love this! And boy do I know what you mean with the Target thing!

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  19. Just for the record, I LOVED Jem and the Holograms. It was my favorite cartoon ever, and then I watched a few episodes a few months ago... EEK.

    Anywho, love the napkins.

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  20. hannah, i love this post so dang much. an entire outfit made of sweater = awesome and truly outrageous.
    you're my fave.
    xo

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