we're nearly through our second week of aba therapy with elijah.
there are weeks ahead yet, but coming this far already has boosted our confidence.
as parents, we've never felt as helpless and hands-off as we have these past two weeks.
this has pushed us to jesus more and more, and he is our confidence!
he's strengthened patrick and myself, and especially our sweetie boy.
it's a beautiful sight to behold, watching things click for him,
seeing him understand and follow directions.
and do it all like a champion. it feels good to be here, resting in jesus to make this good.
fully dependent, completely unable to do this on our own.
i'm overwhelmed again and again at the goodness of god in all this.
words can't properly articulate to you the immense gratitude and wonder that swell my heart so.
the interventionalists that elijah has been teamed up with are incredible.
they almost feel like friends,
in the way they love and care for elijah, and how they encourage us to not give up.
we trust them.
because we trust that god has brought these amazingly gifted and loving hearts into our family to help us
during this crucial window of opportunity for growth in our son.
one of my favorite parts of the day:
hearing "mama!!! MAMA!!!" when elijah comes home and squeezes me so tight i can hardly breathe.
seeing him see me as his mama, wanting to be here with me.
you know, it's been almost two years, since i've really felt connected to him.
sure, elijah loves me, and i know it.
but most days, it would be as if i wasn't even with him. he didn't want my help or company,
pushed away cuddles and hugs, unless they were his idea. and that was rare.
as an adoptive mama, this was especially difficult for me.
and while i'm being honest here, it stings. and i cried and prayed angrily about this.
there was a tiny fear deeply tucked away that came alive, the fear of disconnection from my son.
the lord has shown us the special ways elijah does love us, and the ways he needs us to love him.
these last few months, our family of three has felt more as one than ever before!
communication is open and we are all working hard to understand each other.
we can't see what lies ahead on this long journey, but we are together.
together being led by the very best guide.
the one who made our sweet elijah so wonderful and perfect.
our steadfast loving father in heaven.
who knows exactly what we need and when we need it.
bless the lord, o my soul!
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