this morning as we headed out for preschool, elijah asked for his hat, of course i went back in for it.
it took us a minute to realize what he wanted. it made me think that, lord willing,
one day he'll have a huge vocabulary and we'll understand every word the first time.
and i'll miss that little voice asking for a "hett-uh".
a day will come when his favorite hat won't fit him, maybe already?
all too soon he'll outgrow his carseat, and ride like a big boy.
some day, he won't need me to check his seatbelt. he may be driving himself.
it makes me all sorts of weepy to think about how quickly time pushes forward.
with each milestone and achievement, i realize that this may very well be the last time i experience these things.
no more babies rolling over, no more teething, not more first words. no more preschool.
so i need to pay attention, be present. i want to remember everything.
the good days and the difficult ones.
because there's beauty and growth waiting in it all.
there are days, like today, when i get overwhelmed with thoughts of the future.
i start crying already for things that haven't even happened yet! like elijah starting highschool.
i get sad now about elijah not being a kid anymore.
i can really be ridiculous sometimes.
well, guess what?
he is a kid. right now.
i could be sad about time moving so quickly.
but i'm choosing to see this day.
that's what i want to set my heart toward.
this is where i am, where i need to be. right now.
i don't have grace to handle him being a teenager and needing me less...
because i don't need that grace now.
i have sufficient grace for right now.
there's no need to be anxious or grieved for my future.
the lord is there, and he will carry me when i get there.
just as he is today.
linked up with this fancy lady. check her out, and be encouraged!
you should know, i am an emotional wreck this afternoon.
my sister gave birth to a sweet baby girl yesterday.
i cannot believe my sister is a mama to two babes!
i said goodbye to my dad at the airport this morning.
praying it's sooner than another year when i can see him again!
praise the lord for a new niece and a great visit with my pops!