Wednesday, June 06, 2012

a reminder {because sometimes i don't feel it}

one thing i am grateful for? that nothing depends on me and how i feel.

sometimes i don't feel like god's word is true.
i feel helpless and forsaken. frazzled and weary.

sometimes i feel like i just need to figure it out. i feel like it all needs to make sense.

i've memorized psalm 112:7

he is not afraid of bad news;
his heart is firm, trusting in the lord.

but when a bit of bad news actually happens, i sometimes don't feel so firm in my trust.
shaky and abandoned maybe, but not firm.

yesterday, i was reminded that i can be firm in my heart, lean hard into christ, even when i feel the opposite.
speaking scripture, out loud, in prayer to god.
asking him to help me trust him. over and over again.

he calms my racing heart, unclenches my teeth and gives me peace.
the trouble hasn't gone. i can't see an end in sight.

but he is working on me. he is working in me.
and i am trusting him to hold me up.


11 comments:

  1. Thank you Jesus that he's working on my behalf. I needed that this morning, thanks for sharing! That's one of the many reasons why this blogging world is so cool! Have a blessed day!

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  2. love this. what a great reminder!

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  3. i am so right there too. thanking Jesus our hope does not rest on feelings. phew! only on Him, in Him, and through Him. and that gives me great joy. and relief. hugs and kisses. thanks for being so real, and sharing TRUTH. you are a GEM.

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  4. when my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than i...
    so thankful is grace and love aren't dependent on my feelings!
    beautiful words here; thrilled to have found you!
    :)

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  5. praise God for bringing you to this point in your life that you KNOW him, you TRUST him, you LEAN into Him even when every fiber screams against it.
    that he has taught you discipline in your heart and your response.
    sometimes the action leads and the heart follows - despite how we often feel it should be the other way.
    AMEN.
    and
    AMEN.

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  6. WORD, friend. "A peace that surpasses ALL understanding" ONLY comes from Him. I love you. Now book your flights. Goodbye.

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  7. SO very true. I love this "lean hard into Christ even when I feel the opposite" because truly that is what our faith is all about. To trust in life after you have lived and experienced some very real disheartening things is one of the greatest challenges. Good word sister friend.

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  8. speaking scripture out loud to God in prayer.......hannah, this is exactly the practice i'm trying to take up in my own life and i'm finding it incredibly powerful. you got it, girl! keep shining for HIM
    loveya<3 <3 <3

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  9. Love that quote. He brings us life now.

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  10. I need to print this out and frame it because this is exactly how is *feel*. Thank you so much for sharing this with us!

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