i feel that i better understand the "when the dust settles" phrase.
and i am looking forward to the settling part.
because today it's still full blown dust mode.
and by blown i mean blowing. whipping wildly around me. dust.
blurring my vision and sticking in my hair. it catches in my throat when i try and sneak a breath.
then i have fits of coughing and some crying, too.
turning that dust into dirt streams, trickling down my face, neck and into my shirt.
could i be more uncomfortable?
i know it's so, but this now is the most messy i'd ever like to be.
to the constant movement in this house.
the tearing down, the tidying up. repeat. repeat. repeat.
we have a blast most days! but it.is.intense.
somthing like this, only with just one child:
to the loneliness i've discovered among our 'typical' family friends.
no one seems as eager as i am to understand my sweet, special boy.
to the fact that park visits-or any visits-can't be done on my own.
safety, sanity, strength are the issues there. i need help.
to getting creative at meal times, to make them worth sitting through.
learning to let go of a foot being on the table, it's not a big deal after all.
to the high pitched shriek that elijah yelps upon seeing me at the end of his morning at school.
he is always so excited to see me, he sprints and nearly knocks me down with a hug.
yes. this one's easy to get accustomed to.
in the midst of these dusty days, i see.
i see that, as always, my burdens are made light by him.
not because it's "what i can handle", but because it is more than i could ever.
they're made light because his strength is perfect.
he covers each minute with his goodness and his mercy.
he is faithful to rescue me from fear, despair and loneliness.
the closer i cling to him, the lighter my darkness gets.
no need for me to see the way out from these dusty winds yet,
if i just trust him as he leads the way.
as it's settling, and making more and more sense to me, i'm praise him for his coming after me.
his pursuing me with goodness and mercy. even before i ask!
i've shared this quote and scripture some time ago, on my devotional blog.
it's been encouraging me again recently, and i want to share it with you!
"however contrary the winds and tides
of providence may sometime seem to us,
nothing is more certain than that they
work together to hurry sanctified souls
to god and fit them for glory."