Thursday, April 14, 2011

i am weak, but he is strong

it's only been a few days since i figured out 
that i am indeed still selfish.
funny, i thought i dealt with it all after a couple years of marriage. nope. parenting has shown me plenty more selfishness,
along with a host of other sins. blech.
anyway, keep the prayers coming! 
since my "revelation", i have been trying, by the grace of god, to change my attitude. i've prayed to be less bent on me. i've asked to be more bent on jesus and what he'd have me be and do for others. i even prayed for patience, y'all. now, you know what happens when you pray prayers like these, don't you?
you get big fat opportunities to behave the way you have asked god to help you behave.
let. me tell. you.
this week has been hard. failing most days, and any successes have been by grace alone. god is faithful, even when i am not. mostly when i am not. i am weak. all these hard days are draining me of myself. making me empty.
lord, fill me now, with you and your word and will.

O God, you are my God;
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you;
my flesh faints for you,
as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary,
beholding your power and glory.
Because your steadfast love is better than life,
my lips will praise you.
So I will bless you as long as I live;
in your name I will lift up my hands.
psalm 63:1-4esv
 
The Lord is my strength and my song,
and he has become my salvation;
this is my God, and I will praise him,
 my father’s God, and I will exalt him.
exodus 15:2esv

happy weekend, dear ones!
be encouraged!

7 comments:

  1. You are an encouragement friend! Happy to be in the journey with you.

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  2. I've been really trying to gain more patience since the beginning of this year and it's tough. It's so hard not to be selfish. Keep up the good work, the fact that you even acknowledge what needs to change is huge. I hope your weekend is better!

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  3. happy weekend to you! (his mercies are new every morning.. praise the lord!) you are not alone. i fall every day. as your children grow.. there is all the more accountability. sometimes, it is not fun.. but healthy.;)

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  4. Having a lack of patience is my biggest struggle as a mom. Thanks for your honesty in this post.

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  5. Praying for you, friend. He is clearly at work in your life to place this burden on your heart. Rejoice in that! <3

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  6. thank you, sweet friends! god is so good! xo

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  7. Oh man! This is never over. I think we'll all have a bit of selfishness, until we reach Heaven, right? It clings like a leach.
    Thanks for this exhortation! I love that Psalm 63 passage.

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