i have been having explosions of emotions and thoughts in my brain for over a week. in addition to the usual bit of future dreaming/planning, my past has crept closer and closer to the forefront of my daily thought life. between scripture study, reading and visiting some powerful blog posts,
i have been soul-stirred.
now, i have thought about "my life" many other times before. this round of thought has been very different. is it because i am older? possibly a bit more mature and objective? it doesn't matter why, i suppose, rather what i choose to do with all of these memories, grief, pain, anger and guilt. it seems i am realizing that what i thought had been "dealt with", may never have really been handled well at all.
i think it's time for a serious talk. with myself. about myself.
now, obviously, prayer and seeking the lord will be key here. relying on myself is what ripped a gigantic hole in the tapestry that is my life in the first place.
what would it be like to share part of this
journey of "dealing" on my blog?
how would i? should i? theraputic as i'm certain it would be,
the thought of anyone reading about my deep, dark secrets honestly makes me feel ill.
sure, i've shared with a few people before,
and even helped a few, by the grace of god.
writing it for public viewing, that is crazy. right?
i'm wondering though, after the encouragement that i have felt from others' blog stories, is there something i have that could help someone? anything? for even just one person?
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,
the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction,
so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction,
with the comfort with which
we ourselves are comforted by God.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation.
the old has passed away; behold, the new has come.
Your righteousness, O God, reaches the high heavens. You who have done great things, O God, who is like you? You who have made me see many troubles and calamities will revive me again; from the depths of the earth you will bring me up again. You will increase my greatness and comfort me again.