And Hannah prayed and said,
"My heart exults in the LORD;
my strength is exalted in the LORD.
My mouth derides my enemies,
because I rejoice in your salvation.
"There is none holy like the LORD;
there is none besides you;
there is no rock like our God.
Talk no more so very proudly,
let not arrogance come from your mouth;
for the LORD is a God of knowledge,
and by him actions are weighed.
The bows of the mighty are broken,
but the feeble bind on strength.
Those who were full have hired themselves out for bread,
but those who were hungry have ceased to hunger.
The barren has borne seven,
but she who has many children is forlorn.
The LORD kills and brings to life;
he brings down to Sheol and raises up.
The LORD makes poor and makes rich;
he brings low and he exalts.
He raises up the poor from the dust;
he lifts the needy from the ash heap
to make them sit with princes
and inherit a seat of honor.
For the pillars of the earth are the LORD's,
and on them he has set the world.
"He will guard the feet of his faithful ones,
but the wicked shall be cut off in darkness,
for not by might shall a man prevail.
The adversaries of the LORD shall be broken to pieces;
against them he will thunder in heaven.
The LORD will judge the ends of the earth;
he will give strength to his king
and exalt the power of his anointed."
1 samuel 2.1-10esv
it feels numb. we know how we ought to be feeling now, so that is what we choose to feel. right now it doesn't seem real though. we know that our merciful and mighty Father has greater and more beautiful plans than we could ever dream up! we simply need to trust him. each day we are committing to do this. to trust HIM. two ectopic pregnancies, both tubes now removed, within a few short months. this year began with loss and we are facing it yet again. how? we don't have an answer except that we can indeed bear it because we are. we are hurt yet rejoicing in the lord. we have to decide to follow jesus, to rest in Him each day. we love him and know he holds us close to his heart and he will strengthen us and bind up our wounds. we love our family and friends who have and are encouraging us in the lord. we grieve, but we rejoice that the lord is near and keeping us for a purpose yet unknown.
But as for me, I will look to the LORD;
I will wait for the God of my salvation;
my God will hear me. micah 7.7esv